Last week, when faced with holiday stress and a martini I decided that I needed some help to keep the blog going through the first of the year. So I called all five of the kids and asked for a guest post, telling them they could write about whatever they wanted.
Because I’m a nut like that.
Here’s the first of them – Jolly, being the proud mama she is, responded the very same day. We’ll see if the rest of the them come through for me. No GUILT or anything, you guys.
Two years ago on Christmas Day I woke up really early very excited to open up one gift. I unwrapped a pregnancy test and took it to find out I was pregnant. I was so excited; I have wanted to be a Mom my whole life. Looking back pregnancy was great! It makes you excited, nervous, scared, happy, and a whole lot of other emotions. I was hoping to have a little boy and soon enough at 17 weeks we found out it was a boy!
He arrived with a bang. He decided to come about a month early and that morning when I was driving to get my fiancé from work (he had gotten in a car accident a week prior so we had one car at the time) to go the hospital with me a crazy thing happened. On the 101 freeway in Los Angeles, CA my tire blew out. So there I was in early labor on the side of the freeway waiting for my fiancé to show up and get us to the hospital. Just a couple of hours later our baby boy had arrived.
The first few weeks are the toughest. Hormone levels drop and I was waking up every three hours to feed the baby. Right around 6 weeks I felt normal again and my little baby had his first smile. Everything just became really easy and fun from that point on. Taking care of a baby is just exciting. I love every minute of motherhood. The hard part is trying to deal with a failing relationship or any relationship really. Trying to figure out what is best for you child is hard. Should I be a single mom? Will my son be negatively affected if we do spilt up? What can I do to make this work?
After months, I mean a very long time and it is still a process now, we decided to end the relationship. Now we are finishing moving into our own places and a lot of worries arise. I still love my ex fiancé a great deal but I know that being together is not best for anyone. It’s a very hard thing to do, leave the man you have a child with, the man you have loved for years, the man who has become your best friend. I’m not worried about being a single mom because for me I have been since my son was born. I have worked full time and been a full time mom as well and it’s just awesome to know that everyday I get to come home to my toddler and watch him learn and grow every day.
The truth is that it doesn’t matter if I am single, sick, or poor all that matters is my son. He really brings joy to me every day and I love him very, very much. I have learned in this last year that all I need is me and I can do it. So I am hoping to start the new off as a happier person than I have been. This time of year all I need to cheer me up is my son so here are a few of my favorite pictures of the G-man.