Last week, when faced with holiday stress and a martini I decided that I needed some help to keep the blog going through the first of the year. So I called all five of the kids and asked for a guest post, telling them they could write about whatever they wanted.
Because I’m a nut like that.
Here’s the first of them – Jolly, being the proud mama she is, responded the very same day. We’ll see if the rest of the them come through for me. No GUILT or anything, you guys. 😛
Two years ago on Christmas Day I woke up really early very excited to open up one gift. I unwrapped a pregnancy test and took it to find out I was pregnant. I was so excited; I have wanted to be a Mom my whole life. Looking back pregnancy was great! It makes you excited, nervous, scared, happy, and a whole lot of other emotions. I was hoping to have a little boy and soon enough at 17 weeks we found out it was a boy!
He arrived with a bang. He decided to come about a month early and that morning when I was driving to get my fiancé from work (he had gotten in a car accident a week prior so we had one car at the time) to go the hospital with me a crazy thing happened. On the 101 freeway in Los Angeles, CA my tire blew out. So there I was in early labor on the side of the freeway waiting for my fiancé to show up and get us to the hospital. Just a couple of hours later our baby boy had arrived.
The first few weeks are the toughest. Hormone levels drop and I was waking up every three hours to feed the baby. Right around 6 weeks I felt normal again and my little baby had his first smile. Everything just became really easy and fun from that point on. Taking care of a baby is just exciting. I love every minute of motherhood. The hard part is trying to deal with a failing relationship or any relationship really. Trying to figure out what is best for you child is hard. Should I be a single mom? Will my son be negatively affected if we do spilt up? What can I do to make this work?
After months, I mean a very long time and it is still a process now, we decided to end the relationship. Now we are finishing moving into our own places and a lot of worries arise. I still love my ex fiancé a great deal but I know that being together is not best for anyone. It’s a very hard thing to do, leave the man you have a child with, the man you have loved for years, the man who has become your best friend. I’m not worried about being a single mom because for me I have been since my son was born. I have worked full time and been a full time mom as well and it’s just awesome to know that everyday I get to come home to my toddler and watch him learn and grow every day.
The truth is that it doesn’t matter if I am single, sick, or poor all that matters is my son. He really brings joy to me every day and I love him very, very much. I have learned in this last year that all I need is me and I can do it. So I am hoping to start the new off as a happier person than I have been. This time of year all I need to cheer me up is my son so here are a few of my favorite pictures of the G-man.